i dont know what to name these things anymore. anyway.. i think im gonna get more and more into the whole writing bit. its really a lot more reasonable than bothering people and trying other ways to let tensions go

ok i havent written in a while...nothing much has been going on...im still going out with Bryan!!! our one monthe was last tuesday(three days ago)...or2... yeah 2 days. anyway. so yeah thats pretty much it. i feel confined.

i guess it has been a long time since i have written an entry,,,lately i havent felt the need to. until recently. i feel misunderstood. like nobody gets whats happening now. of course..i dont talk about anything with them...but if i write...they dont get it anyway. im not asking them to. and i dont blame them i mean it is my fault but ...ok now im just blabbing. oh well im done.

yeah the title explains it all. he can go to tolo. hes feeling better and I was within 500 yards of the band Green Day. lol YEAH RIGHT LIKE I CARE. that band is a little too famous. I think I'll stick to the Transplants. So yeah. anyway. erm. school is going pretty well...there is this one assignment i have in European History in the IB program that is freaking me out but hey im sure my rebuttal will be alright. and Chemistry is a little challenging. Apparently from how i have written this entry my english is going pretty well ^_^ haha. Everything seems to be getting a little better, i think we all just have to learn to deal with what comes cause it really cant get anyworse at times. HAHA what a pleasant thought. I cant wait for tomorrow...I havent said that in a long time.

There is someone new and very special in my life, i care about him a lot and i know he cares about me too. im worried about him, it seems like hes slowly falling apart. i remember what it was like and i still feel it sometimes and pray to god that he will guide him. he has no faith but i know that God will help him, he must, he is in need of someone to trust and love him, i am there but even i can only do so much. So here is a prayer, i know its weird on deviantart but still its me. God please guide Bryan, he needs you now more than ever and there is no one so strong as you to guide him, treat him as you would me, you have always brought me through the hard times please help him through his.
i know he will be ok. we all get through our bad times but still sometimes we all need support when we are going through them. I love him so much and I hope that no matter what he will be safe and his troubles solved. God please help him and his family, who need your kindness and grace, to find them within eachother to better their relationship. There should never be so much anger within a family, we build upon what our closest ones give to us, and if hate is all, I pray for Bryan and how he is affected.

If you believe that God is there for us please pray for him and even if you dont please hope that he will be better. He and his family need support even from those he doesnt know.